Does my little posy in the blogosphere really wanna hear how negative I am lately? How much I miss him? How pissed I am that I can’t ask him to grab me a roll of toilet paper when I’m sitting mid stream realizing the roll is bare? Sorry – T.M.I. I know, but think about it. Think about all the things you take for granted. You know you have done it… “Honey can you bring me some toilet paper?”
I suspect there are two contributing factors to my recent funk. 1) The new golf course gig (which I love and would not give up for anything - BTW). I find myself looking out the window and literally replaying events that occurred YEARS ago at that place in my head. Back when I had life by the balls. I just didn’t know it. 2) The fact that I put finding #2 on the backburner. Although I am glad I have. Letting go of that excitement makes my reality a little too clear. You know – like when you cannot talk your dog into fetching you toilet paper… That’s real. I miss him!
Anyway – V A C A T I O N!!!! 10 more days’ folks! I cannot think of a single vacation I needed more than this one. And luckily I’ve been on many, as I have the very best parents in the world who love to vacation and love me.
10 days until pure white sand and a blue sky like this…
(From his last cancer free beach vacation)
Oh and this guy in conversation, memories and spirit…
Have a good day!
It would be nice if we’d get some rain ya know!?!
Love,
Amy
After I read the secong paragraph I was thinking - train your kids to fetch the toilet paper... then I saw the next paragraph. You already tried :-)
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a truly wonderful vacation in a week! Have a drink for me while you're gone too.
I know exactly how you feel :( I'd love to chat via email or Facebook when you get back from vacation if you're up to it - let me know.
ReplyDelete- Karen