Hey Y'all,
Hope things are good with you.
Between my non-stop work schedule and my insomnia I'm kicking my own ass these days.
I haven't had much time to compile many thoughts into anything that would even resemble an entry worthy of posting.
I am still working on a follow-up to the golf outing. I took at little racing vacation (as noted here) and then Josh took a much deserved trip to Florida. So as soon as he and I nail down all the final numbers, I'll be sure and get the details posted. Stay tuned for that!
I cannot help but to think about what I would be doing this weekend for what would have/should have been David's 35th birthday. I remember his 30th like it was yesterday. I was SO excited for him. I always looked for any and all reasons to make him feel special. And I am so thrilled I had the opportunity to do just that so many times. I now fully accept that it wasn't in the cards for him to live out a nice long and happy life with me until we were "blue hairs" and drift off into the sunset together. I still don't have to like it, but accepting it has helped carrying on without him much easier. Healing is a wonderful feeling. Would I change things??? Hell yes, in a heartbeat. But changing his death isn't an option. Living a life he wanted for me is, and this is just what I am doing.
But today - this weekend - I honor him.
Just the way I like to remember him best. HEALTHY…
Hope things are good with you.
Between my non-stop work schedule and my insomnia I'm kicking my own ass these days.
I haven't had much time to compile many thoughts into anything that would even resemble an entry worthy of posting.
I am still working on a follow-up to the golf outing. I took at little racing vacation (as noted here) and then Josh took a much deserved trip to Florida. So as soon as he and I nail down all the final numbers, I'll be sure and get the details posted. Stay tuned for that!
I cannot help but to think about what I would be doing this weekend for what would have/should have been David's 35th birthday. I remember his 30th like it was yesterday. I was SO excited for him. I always looked for any and all reasons to make him feel special. And I am so thrilled I had the opportunity to do just that so many times. I now fully accept that it wasn't in the cards for him to live out a nice long and happy life with me until we were "blue hairs" and drift off into the sunset together. I still don't have to like it, but accepting it has helped carrying on without him much easier. Healing is a wonderful feeling. Would I change things??? Hell yes, in a heartbeat. But changing his death isn't an option. Living a life he wanted for me is, and this is just what I am doing.
But today - this weekend - I honor him.
Just the way I like to remember him best. HEALTHY…
Happy 35th love.David Dearinger
8/20/1976 ~ 3/12/2010
Have a great weekend all.
Enjoy a Bud Light or 12 for ^^him^^. He’d like that…
Amy
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