Till death do us part?

Till death do us part…


Does that mean David and I are no longer married? Ummm… HELL NO! Happy 6th anniversary to my love in Heaven.


I’m fairly certain nobody is interested in hearing about all the emotions I’m feeling at the moment. I’m not even sure I want to own them. I just know 6 years ago I entered into the most magical marriage. Two became one that day. David died 6 months ago and left me half a person. So the story goes, lonely sad, angry… did I say lonely? I know – a broken record.




I spent my anniversary morning watching my wedding video from start to finish. Some of the best parts twice (like this). While watching that video I was reminded of all the wonderful people who helped make that weekend so memorable. Obviously my amazing mom and dad who spent their hard earned cash on the whole thing. From invitations, to the rehearsal dinner, to the videographer. All of it. Of course I am extremely appreciative of that. But what I was truly drawn to on Saturday was all the unexpected help.


First – my “Aunt” Mary. She was so wonderful at keeping my mom calm and ironing out all the wrinkles of the day. Thanks Aunt Mary. I don’t think we could have done it without you.

My Aunt Ellen. That day we had asked two of David’s family members to be program attendants. One of those ladies was ill and did not make it and the other chose just not to do it at the last minute. Aunt Ellen didn’t take offence that she wasn’t asked initially. She just took charge and seen that everyone received a friendly smile and a program while entering the church. Thank you so much Aunt Ellen. I hope you know how much that kind gesture meant to me (and David too I’m sure).

Laura and Paul. You guys tried so hard. Laura and Paul were about to be 1st time parents. Baby Olivia wanted it to be her special day too so she gave Laura plenty of signs that she wanted to come into the world the very day of our wedding. The adorable anxious couple tried so hard to make it all day, but Olivia had other plans for them. They made it for pre-wedding pictures but that was all Olivia was going to allow. We have the last photo of Laura and Paul lives before they started their ever growing beautiful family. Thank you guys so much for trying so hard to be a part of our day. We felt your love there in spirit.

Jamie Fichner. What can I say about Jamal!?! He wrote a song for us! Jamie, I miss you buddy. I hope you are doing well. You will always hold a special place in my heart.

Aunt Betty. Again, what can I say? She helped me pee she bought me day of pimple crème and she had the pleasure of letting me know my cat shredded my cathedral length veil while we were away at our rehearsal dinner. True story. She made sure only the best worked on my hair to make it just perfect. She is awesome, and I’m so proud to be her mini-me.

Last but not least… Josh. I just love Joshy. Josh lived with Dave and me when we were married. He was a HUGE help. He helped roll silverware, he bought last minute candles, he arranged the party bus, and he took care of our house while we were away. He was awesome, but that is Josh. He’d give you the shirt off his back. It is a story for another day (when I’m ready) but the very last word David said before he died was Josh. Yep – he’s that special.

I leave you with my favorite wedding photo of all time. I’d give anything to see that ring on his finger again. Instead I wear it around my neck… I miss you my love.

Goodnight everyone.


Love,




Amy