Dear God, I’ve missed You...

Dear God, I’ve missed You.

Well friends I did it. I went to church.

It was AWESOME.

I walked in being so pissed off at God and walked out with peace. No kidding.

I asked Steve (Dave’s BF) who was also there with Lauren and me if he had told on me because the message felt like it was 100% directed at me.

I will never understand why Dave had to suffer as he did and die even after his best efforts to live. Well, I guess I will never understand while on earth anyway. I just need to trust in the fact that it was His plan and it had purpose. I need to live on appreciating the time we did have and letting go all the anger and resentment that has built up over the last 6+ months. After all – that isn’t the me my David loved. I need to be that person again. I need to be me.

Each morning I receive a quotation from the grief website I joined. This was today’s message…

“Today I have a choice. I can think about the past and mourn my losses or I can embrace the future and live in hope.” – Anonymous

It is wild how someday something just clicks, the stars all line up and peace is found.

Today my faith is restored; today I begin embracing my future and live on in hope. And when I have struggles I have God, Church 922, and Pastor C. his gorgeous wife A. to help guide me back on the right path.

Today I am full of the (F) word, and not the one I’ve found myself using very regularly lately. Today I am once again full of FAITH!

I close with a great song. (Who You Are)

Live in hope friends,

Amy