A Once in a Lifetime Love…

Hello beloved followers…

I’m back.

So if you’re still reading this, thanks for hangin’ in with me.

I’m good. I really am. No bull-shit here. I.AM.GOOD.

I cried my eyes out tonight. And that’s rare.

I went to see The Vow tonight. And it could have been the stout Watermelon Martini I had beforehand (that was $10 BTW) but more likely the movie.

My smart friends have probably read the book. I have not. I like the idea of reading the book. I just hate the actual READING part. The movie (although perfect) left me wanting to know more about the story. I want to know everything about Paige and Leo.

This post isn’t about The Vow or Paige and Leo (the characters). But it is a great TRUE story. If you appreciate honest to goodness true, selfless, give your all, lie down and die for you love, you will love the movie.

This posting is about honest to goodness true, selfless, give your all, lie down and die for you love…

I once had that. I am blessed. And I will never under appreciate that. EVER.

In Paige and Leo’s wedding vows Paige calls their love for one another a “Once in a Lifetime Love”.

That idea of “Once in a Lifetime Love” made me sad - like cry my eyes out sad.
Not like cry my eyes out until I’m sick and can’t get out of bed sad. More like fuck, I’m 33 (almost) and I’ve burned up my once in a lifetime love already!

I have no regrets. NONE! I still love Dave. And I always will. I am so proud of our rockstar love. It is my proudest achievement.

But have I used up my one shot at uber happiness? You see -- I am healed. I am SO ready to give this healed heart of mine away again. But damn, it will have to feel as good as the first time. And if that “one time” is gone, all this hope I have built up is useless…. And that made me sad.

The movie progressed.

Leo looks at a friend of his while describing his current situation with wife Page, and he said the most amazing thing. (I’m telling you, see the movie)

He says, “The weeks leading up to Paige falling in love with me was the best time of my life, and I get to do it again.”

Ahhh…. BINGO!

Nope, I can’t love Dave back to life, but I can be hopeful that I get my second chance at that “Once in a Lifetime Love”. And maybe - just maybe I can be even better at it. Experience counts for a lot… I think. =)

Love Y’all!

Until next time…

-Amy-

Inseparable Love: It’s not goodbye but see you, soon.

Yes, I'm on a blogging break - so to speak. In the meantime, here is something very worthwhile reading.

By Lauren Finan -- my beloved sister. Grab a tissue, click on the link and enjoy...

Inseparable Love: It’s not goodbye but see you, soon.

I'll be "back" soon!

Much love,

Amy D.

The 411...

Hey Y’all!

Hoping all is well in your neck of the woods!!!

I am doing phenomenal or maybe I should say FUNnomenal?!?

I guess somewhere along the way during the last 4 years I had forgotten what life felt like when the good outweighed the bad. I must say – It has been an excellent breath of fresh air getting back to that place. *taking a deep breath….. AHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh.

No amount of fun will ever make up for the horror my (and David’s) life became four years ago. With that said, David and I never let his cancer define us. It never – not once sucked the fun completely out of life. We just didn’t allow it. I’ve reached a point in my life - through my healing I suppose - that I no longer have to “fight for fun.” It just comes naturally. Effortlessly.

It wasn’t that long ago that when I caught myself having fun I felt guilty. No more of that either. The hell with it! Life is too f*cking short. Have fun and make the best of what you got. And that I proudly do. It is like my “life coach” in heaven is repeatedly shouting that in my ear (minus the F word of course).

So weather it is going NASCAR racing with my dad, dancing foolishly with co-workers on dining room tables, or a simple fire-pit with great tunes in the backyard --- I’m having fun. And it’s nice. Very nice.

The trick is --- finding someone to share my fun with me. But concentrating on that is tiring and I’ve decided to just let nature take its course. I surely don’t want to force someone on myself. That isn’t fair to anyone. They say patience is a virtue. So --- I’m gonna TRY and give it a shot (key word, TRY)!

Side note for my single shela friends on the prowl: If a guy you totally are uninterested in getting to know approaches you, remember this phrase. They will run faster than the hot fudge on a scoop of ice cream. (With the most serious face you can come up with – say) “So, tell me, do you have swimmers because I’m looking to breed.” Honest to goodness, it works every time. Used it on some ass clown last weekend. The very same ass clown that I witnessed taking off his wedding ring just before his “big approach.” Now that is classic!

Anyway, in closing --- The movie 50/50 --- GO SEE IT! I pray you never can relate to it the way I can. Just as much as I pray I never relate to it the way David could. Bottom line --- it is a must see. I went alone to the 8:15 showing Sunday night because I was hoping to sit without any close by “neighbors”. I got my wish. And for that I am eternally grateful. Good stuff!

Leaving you with a good tune --- (here) --- cause It’s fun and that’s how I like to roll these days… ;) Now where is the closest dining room table? Next time I’m charging admission to the Amy show. LOL

Good night Y’all.

Much love,

-AD-